….

the feeling came back..

Da jie went to Genting, and i’m just alone with mama.

Maybe is the sense of loneliness. ^^;

felt empty. Is the same when you went to Thailand.

crying alone, being lonely.

what to do?

and just nice you arent with me today..

Same old thing, facing the laptop, praying that da jie be back safe and sound.

Worrying. Sigh, i think i can understand how a mom feel ^^;

Let go is the thing that i need to learn right now.

I know this is not a good thing for being possessive in a way. But this is the only way that i know i can reach, touch and also feel it.

Bye Comics IG. I need to let go……

No matter whether how missed or unbearable that is.

Hate myself…

Why do you keep appearing in my dreams? ><,

I’m trying hard to forget about the things that we’ve been through, and trying to keep those memories hidden. Or even trying to erase it.

This is the first relationship that i have been very happy and cautious, maintaining it well, and hope that it can last long. To me, you are my nightmare. So stop pestering me in my dream ><!!

WHY?! Can’t u just freaking F*** off and stop hindering me finding my happiness. Kind of relieve that you didn’t turn up for the last gathering =w=

But what’s with me ><, i already have him, and why u keep appearing in my mind? DX the more i trying to forget about you, the more u pestering me. rawr.

I hate myself seriously, for thinking too much.

A song that how i felt when you went overseas that time…  And made me realize that i treasure you more than i can imagine ><,

Never Let You Go

By: Janice

The rain, just never seems to bring
the joy, I feel the same
everlasting pain of my loss remains

My heart, can’t seem to learn to part
the hole you left the mark
all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark

Tho I told myself I’ll hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t live my life without you
If you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,
I’d never let you go

The way, you left me on the train
I don’t know what to say
I remember everything on that day

I can’t believe we’d never dance
I just need one more chance
to share the sunset our one last romance
Tho I told myself won’t hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

If you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t live my life without you
If you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,
I’d never let you go

I love you…

Fish

Freaking pek chek ><,

Left with 2 days holiday, and thanks to the fucking weather, i fall ill.

WTF.

I can’t do anything, every stuck at home. Been stuck at home for the 5TH DAY! WHO WILL FUCKING LIKE IT MAN?

TML IS A SATURDAY, THOUGHT WHAT WANTED TO HAVE A BREATHER, AT LEAST CAN GO OUT AND DO FYP MEETING. AND THANKS AR, FYP MEETING BEING CANCELLED.

WTF.

DON’T IRRITATE ME. I WILL BITE.

=A=

frustrated.

Can’t do anything well.

No motivation.

WTF.

Where do i belong to….

4 more days..

Good or bad..?
Is like >.> i already got used to be alone, or rather, independent ><;
Should i be happy or sad when he is coming back…? Can’t adjust my feeling though ><,

4 more days to go.

Happy 7th Month anniversary. =)
Rawr. >.>

Still waiting ^^;

Fish

^^;

hai!

11 more days..

for his return!! =D

I was wondering how will i react when i see him >.> lol! Hope that not sth that will kill him! ^^;

This song made me cried><!!

Who say that Hatsune Miku can’t sing with emotion? She can ALRITE!! XD

In love with Hatsune Miku~!! WEEE~~

Waiting…

For you…

Fish

RAWR

RAWR! Never in my life being so pissed off by someone =w=

who she think she is?! Forcing people to go her way? WTF! I have been bearing with her for a long time already!!! 2 YEARS! I never reject her once. If i did, she will keep emoing and saying that no one love her and etc. WTF?! GROW UP! YOU ARE NO LONGER THAT YOUNG.

RAWR.

i know that you are trying to care for me. But SORRY. I DON’T BUY THIS KIND OF ATTITUDE YOU GAVE ME. Why force people when they doesn’t want to do it? And is like, “hello? This is my life! How are you in my life to order me around? You are just my friend, not even my husband and etc.” (Even is my husband also cant order me around right? =w=)

RAWR.

Never been so stress =A=

I rush the ppt slides alone. and is like tonnes of resources to read from. DX And is like total 3 members in my team (including me) both of them are slackers =A=

I rushed everything my own. And i already tried my best. Almost cry sia DX and is like SHE STILL COME AND KA JIAO ME. I ALREADY TOLD HER THAT I’M NOT IN THE MOOD AND LET ME FINISH MY WORK FIRST. SHE DON’T WANT. WANTING ME TO GO DOWN WITH HER. WTF?! and of course, i show her attitude. I PS her when reach ground floor. i don’t want to see her for temp.

Seriously, almost cause me to nearly lose my temper. WTF lor.

sigh.. Nevermind le ba. My anger is already subsided.

*feel like slaughtering someone now* =3+

*grab and shake rice*

*hugs and cries*

rawr…….

12 more days to go…

Fish

A week passed..

Time really flies..

A week just passed like this. Unknowingly ^^;

Though every day it seems a hectic day for the both of us, we still make it a point to message and get to know each other’s life and updates. Thanks for the effort -^^-

Rawr. Things just getting ain’t better. Lots of things being screwed up and year 3, is much more stress than before. And remember, HAVE LOTS OF REST BEFORE GOING TO SCHOOL. It is really really very shagged when u are tired, you still have to deal with lots of theories and also, the shits that faci gave you =w= and especially in Logistics/ Supply Chain Management, lots of understanding is needed. If your brain is not working, it will be gone case for the rest of the day. LOL! I experienced it for quite a lot of time. Tiring.

CH, no matter what, don’t leave Comics IG. We are here for you. Do take note =)

if you are feeling stress or anything, talk to us. We are one big family isn’t it? ^^ *grab and shake CH* we really need to sit down again and have a heart to heart talk like we once did before k? =3 jiayou! don’t give up =D

Hai, today is the last day of SLA.

1st day(Tuesday), crap =A=

I’m the first artist, and not many people turn up or even sign up. Felt VERY DEMORALIZING. Though they are some other unexpected events occurred. and i made up my mind, i will NEVER EVER GOING TO DO LIVEFEED AGAIN. I FELT KIND OF BEING HUMILIATE BY THE PEOPLE OUT THERE. Sigh.. Seems like nobody appreciate it (Ch, i can understand how you feel now)

I dragged my feet home. When i reach home, i realised that nobody at home was waiting for me. I felt so lonely and alone out of the sudden. But i just kept it within myself ^^; got used to it since young ba. So i just indulge myself with all the anime and manga i can find online. and slowly waiting for mama and da jie to come back from their Linedancing session at somewhere near Lavender. ^^ Meanwhile, i received your msg. i was so stunned and I cried ><; because whenever i need you, u seems to know it ^^ coincidence i think. After you msg, i was looking forward for you to call. Never ever in my life looking forward to it.

After we talked, and you went for your R.O. While waiting for you, i fell asleep. That was already 12+ when my mom woke me up to see if i’m still waiting for your call. Later around 2, you called. And told me about your worse nightmare for the day. You lost your hp when you ran to your HQ. I felt extremely helpless and heartache when imagining you searching for your hp so hard in the middle of the night. And yet i only can sit on my bed, praying hard that you will be fine, crying. That night is really a torture for the both of us.

Finally all the long wait, its the dawn. I was worrying about you for the whole night. Sigh.. Then i know that something must be done. Therefore, i muster up all the courage to call your parents about your situation ^^; i’m afraid that what happen to you, your parents doesn’t know it. Gomen if i took the decision for you to terminate your hp contract for temp. But glad that auntie understand the situation and she is the one to remind me that she need to call singtel about this matter, and uncle keep consoling me that everything will be fine, and you know what to next step and etc. I think i worried too much. LOL!

2nd day (Wednesday)

Luckily there’s no school yesterday. But we are having FYP meeting. no choice, but to drag my feet back to school again. RAWR! shall not talk anything about it. >.> freaking pissed of by their attitude (you know who you are). But luckily i have understanding team mates and advisor. Love them lots sia. <33

SLA. Scolded almost the rest of them (to vent my anger also) for their ’slack’ attitude on tues and yesterday. I didn’t CH appear at all. Nevermind, i ask Xin to in charge. And everything go as i expected. recruited quite a number of students. Felt kind of relieved =) but retaining them as a member is another thing. That one i shall leave it to Jiemi. HEHEHE~! *evil fish smirking*

Nothing much goes after that.

3rd day (Thursday)

Which is why i’m writing now. LOL! Nothing seems like going on right now. Will be going for last day of SLA later after school. sigh..

Just that i have an urge to tell you everything. ><, wanted to message you, but msg to WHO?! I can’t spam your friend’s phone >.> i can’t write to you <.< i can’t do anything but to write down here. I need someone to talk to ><!! Come back asap. please DX

And hope that everything goes well for your fieldcamp =3 please come back as a whole ^^;

I’m waiting for you. Even though you will be calling at Saturday night, but i prefer to talk to you face to face. T^T

rawr! You will get it from me when you come back DX *strangle rice*

I miss you… T^T

Fish

3 weeks of waiting…

as i mention on the title of the post, 3 weeks of waiting finally arrived today.

Went to class as per normal, (classes started at 10am now! shiok sia! =x) quickly rush through ppt slides and present, then i met up with jiemi (he came and fetch me) and we went straight to Changi airport (which is my third time going there..?) to have our lunch over there with his parents ^^; kind of awkward at first, but gradually got use to it ><!!

Haii, then we walk around and hang out around changi airport between terminal 1 and 2. Didn’t have the chance yet to explore terminal 3. But soon, real soon…

Lets just count down. I will try my best to update every day ^^;

so once again. I’m back. And not dead yet. LOL! I’m alive every day ^^;

Is just that will be a little too high or too emo. =x

24 days of waiting, starting from today. Lets just count down ba.. ^^,

I will be waiting for you to come back to my side safe and sound =)

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My heart was like being squeezed when i saw you leaving for the plane. When at the departure hall, i was extremely reluctant to let go your hand. After seeing you going in, my eyes just filled with tears and it just keep flowing down. Was trembling when i see you off and walk away till i can’t see your shadow. However, this serve as a test for the both of us. I believe we can make it through. Lets just ganbatte for the 3 weeks! Next time round, it will the both of us walking into the departure hall,

To go to japan together!! =D is a promise! -^^- *pinky finger promise*

I love you too.. my dear..

waiting for you,

fish

When a  sec passed,

it seems a min to me.

When a min passed,

it seems an hour to me.

When a day passed,

it seems a month to me.

So when you ask me to wait for you 3 weeks,

it seems forever to me…

Some times waiting isn’t a bad thing, but the process is unbearable.

So how am i going to tell you that…?