….

3 09 2009

the feeling came back..

Da jie went to Genting, and i’m just alone with mama.

Maybe is the sense of loneliness. ^^;

felt empty. Is the same when you went to Thailand.

crying alone, being lonely.

what to do?

and just nice you arent with me today..

Same old thing, facing the laptop, praying that da jie be back safe and sound.

Worrying. Sigh, i think i can understand how a mom feel ^^;

Let go is the thing that i need to learn right now.

I know this is not a good thing for being possessive in a way. But this is the only way that i know i can reach, touch and also feel it.

Bye Comics IG. I need to let go……

No matter whether how missed or unbearable that is.





Hate myself…

21 07 2009

Why do you keep appearing in my dreams? ><,

I’m trying hard to forget about the things that we’ve been through, and trying to keep those memories hidden. Or even trying to erase it.

This is the first relationship that i have been very happy and cautious, maintaining it well, and hope that it can last long. To me, you are my nightmare. So stop pestering me in my dream ><!!

WHY?! Can’t u just freaking F*** off and stop hindering me finding my happiness. Kind of relieve that you didn’t turn up for the last gathering =w=

But what’s with me ><, i already have him, and why u keep appearing in my mind? DX the more i trying to forget about you, the more u pestering me. rawr.

I hate myself seriously, for thinking too much.

A song that how i felt when you went overseas that time…  And made me realize that i treasure you more than i can imagine ><,

Never Let You Go

By: Janice

The rain, just never seems to bring
the joy, I feel the same
everlasting pain of my loss remains

My heart, can’t seem to learn to part
the hole you left the mark
all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark

Tho I told myself I’ll hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t live my life without you
If you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,
I’d never let you go

The way, you left me on the train
I don’t know what to say
I remember everything on that day

I can’t believe we’d never dance
I just need one more chance
to share the sunset our one last romance
Tho I told myself won’t hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

If you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t live my life without you
If you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,
I’d never let you go

I love you…

Fish





12 06 2009

Freaking pek chek ><,

Left with 2 days holiday, and thanks to the fucking weather, i fall ill.

WTF.

I can’t do anything, every stuck at home. Been stuck at home for the 5TH DAY! WHO WILL FUCKING LIKE IT MAN?

TML IS A SATURDAY, THOUGHT WHAT WANTED TO HAVE A BREATHER, AT LEAST CAN GO OUT AND DO FYP MEETING. AND THANKS AR, FYP MEETING BEING CANCELLED.

WTF.

DON’T IRRITATE ME. I WILL BITE.





=A=

2 06 2009

frustrated.

Can’t do anything well.

No motivation.

WTF.

Where do i belong to….





4 more days..

12 05 2009

Good or bad..?
Is like >.> i already got used to be alone, or rather, independent ><;
Should i be happy or sad when he is coming back…? Can’t adjust my feeling though ><,

4 more days to go.

Happy 7th Month anniversary. =)
Rawr. >.>

Still waiting ^^;

Fish





^^;

5 05 2009

hai!

11 more days..

for his return!! =D

I was wondering how will i react when i see him >.> lol! Hope that not sth that will kill him! ^^;

This song made me cried><!!

Who say that Hatsune Miku can’t sing with emotion? She can ALRITE!! XD

In love with Hatsune Miku~!! WEEE~~

Waiting…

For you…

Fish





RAWR

4 05 2009

RAWR! Never in my life being so pissed off by someone =w=

who she think she is?! Forcing people to go her way? WTF! I have been bearing with her for a long time already!!! 2 YEARS! I never reject her once. If i did, she will keep emoing and saying that no one love her and etc. WTF?! GROW UP! YOU ARE NO LONGER THAT YOUNG.

RAWR.

i know that you are trying to care for me. But SORRY. I DON’T BUY THIS KIND OF ATTITUDE YOU GAVE ME. Why force people when they doesn’t want to do it? And is like, “hello? This is my life! How are you in my life to order me around? You are just my friend, not even my husband and etc.” (Even is my husband also cant order me around right? =w=)

RAWR.

Never been so stress =A=

I rush the ppt slides alone. and is like tonnes of resources to read from. DX And is like total 3 members in my team (including me) both of them are slackers =A=

I rushed everything my own. And i already tried my best. Almost cry sia DX and is like SHE STILL COME AND KA JIAO ME. I ALREADY TOLD HER THAT I’M NOT IN THE MOOD AND LET ME FINISH MY WORK FIRST. SHE DON’T WANT. WANTING ME TO GO DOWN WITH HER. WTF?! and of course, i show her attitude. I PS her when reach ground floor. i don’t want to see her for temp.

Seriously, almost cause me to nearly lose my temper. WTF lor.

sigh.. Nevermind le ba. My anger is already subsided.

*feel like slaughtering someone now* =3+

*grab and shake rice*

*hugs and cries*

rawr…….

12 more days to go…

Fish








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